Seriously, I am THE single most non-photogenic person I know
Monday, December 29, 2008
I have an audience...
And might I note, that though it is only 1 person that I know of, my audiance is the prettiest!
So while attending the Christmas choas that occurs every holiday at my in-laws, I was informed that, in nicer words, I am a crap-tastic blogger. And its true. I was alos reminded that now is not the best time to fail at said skill. Why you ask? Becuase I have officially become mother natures version of a taxi-cab.
Looking back at my past blogs... (in which I had to go wayyyy back) I laugh at the Big-Man's sense of humor. 6 months of charting, temping and faithful business-having and nothing. nada. only one solo pink line. Then I set foot on the biggest ship in Florida, on th vacation I had been planning for over a year, and low-and behold I get my period 5 days early. So a friend and I embark on our journey across 14 floors of the biggest cruise ship in Florida, right after a mandatory "practice" room evacuation that closes both the medic and every store in the prominade, to find a box of tampons. I proceed to pay 8 bucks for 5 tampons (HIGHWAY ROBBERY) and go on my merry way, all the while shaking my fist at Mother Nature.
Fast forward, and we arrive back to MI. See said blog post, but I decide to stop charting for that month, since I did nothing while on the above mentioned ship. 2 weeks later and the OCD in me kicks in. What is going on? Have I ovulated? Am I pregnant? Is my period due...or late? Who the hell knows...not me. I then bitch and moan all over my blog, to my mom and friends about knowing for sure I am not in fact knocked up, however I also have no idea where my period is. I take 2 pregnancy test, both negative. I decide to wait.
A week later, still nothing. Because I am OCD I decide to start temping even though it is near the end of said cycle but I want to see what is going on. Monday...increase temps= increase hope...Tuesday/ Wednesday...Temp falls faster than a bowling ball jumping off a building. BUT...Wednesday night...I had the most painful chest you have ever...and I have been wearing a bra since 5th grade...so I REALLY mean EVER...felt. There goes my hopes...creeping right back up in my head. Thursday morning, temp jumps by 10...YES 10 degrees! WTH? So..I PIAC. And Test. And test again. I got my BFP on 11/20/2008.
So while attending the Christmas choas that occurs every holiday at my in-laws, I was informed that, in nicer words, I am a crap-tastic blogger. And its true. I was alos reminded that now is not the best time to fail at said skill. Why you ask? Becuase I have officially become mother natures version of a taxi-cab.
Looking back at my past blogs... (in which I had to go wayyyy back) I laugh at the Big-Man's sense of humor. 6 months of charting, temping and faithful business-having and nothing. nada. only one solo pink line. Then I set foot on the biggest ship in Florida, on th vacation I had been planning for over a year, and low-and behold I get my period 5 days early. So a friend and I embark on our journey across 14 floors of the biggest cruise ship in Florida, right after a mandatory "practice" room evacuation that closes both the medic and every store in the prominade, to find a box of tampons. I proceed to pay 8 bucks for 5 tampons (HIGHWAY ROBBERY) and go on my merry way, all the while shaking my fist at Mother Nature.
Fast forward, and we arrive back to MI. See said blog post, but I decide to stop charting for that month, since I did nothing while on the above mentioned ship. 2 weeks later and the OCD in me kicks in. What is going on? Have I ovulated? Am I pregnant? Is my period due...or late? Who the hell knows...not me. I then bitch and moan all over my blog, to my mom and friends about knowing for sure I am not in fact knocked up, however I also have no idea where my period is. I take 2 pregnancy test, both negative. I decide to wait.
A week later, still nothing. Because I am OCD I decide to start temping even though it is near the end of said cycle but I want to see what is going on. Monday...increase temps= increase hope...Tuesday/ Wednesday...Temp falls faster than a bowling ball jumping off a building. BUT...Wednesday night...I had the most painful chest you have ever...and I have been wearing a bra since 5th grade...so I REALLY mean EVER...felt. There goes my hopes...creeping right back up in my head. Thursday morning, temp jumps by 10...YES 10 degrees! WTH? So..I PIAC. And Test. And test again. I got my BFP on 11/20/2008.
Friday, November 14, 2008
This one is a TOUGHIE.
So it is CD 28 and I have gotten 2 BFNs this week. I know that it is impossible to know if I am late…or to early to test ya ya ya (see post below…I didn’t chart this month…stoopid me) but this cycle has been the hardest since we have started our TTC journey. Since we decided to go off BCP we have always had the cruise to look forward to, so we were not to bent outta shape when it wasn’t happening. (And actually..we had a blast. I'm sure we would have even if I had been KTFU…we just had a different..more reckless kinda fun) But now, this is ALL we want. When we first started trying all I could think about was being pregnant, and because I am stubborn as all get out, I was SURE it was not going to take us long AT ALL. I was envisioning having a belly at Christmas, making Christmas lists (our families are SO anal about lists. Seriously we start ours at Halloween) and surprising family members with our news around the Holidays. I know it isn’t over yet, and with my cycles, IF it works next cycles I will be 6 weeks at Christmas, which could be just as fun. So now, as I'm perfecting our lists and making plans for holiday dinners all I can think of is realizing it really is going to be this hard for us. And it is just crushing me. DH is starting to get frustrated as well, its dis-heartening.
AND…I am so sick of people telling us it isn’t happening because we THINK about it to much. SERIOUSLY?! No, it’s not happening because one month I ovulate on CD 11 and the next CD 21. How do you plan for that? So here we go with cycle 7. Lucky # 7…except 6 is my lucky number. BAH! I am planning on starting with OPKs this month. As well as switching from the generic to the real pre-seed. Let’s see where we end up.
AND…I am so sick of people telling us it isn’t happening because we THINK about it to much. SERIOUSLY?! No, it’s not happening because one month I ovulate on CD 11 and the next CD 21. How do you plan for that? So here we go with cycle 7. Lucky # 7…except 6 is my lucky number. BAH! I am planning on starting with OPKs this month. As well as switching from the generic to the real pre-seed. Let’s see where we end up.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
My inner BOTB is pissed at me!
So this month, my CD 1 began about 2 hours after I set foot upon my first cruise ship. (Royal Caribbean-Liberty of the Seas…BEAUTIFUL) I had packed my BBT with every determination set to continue my good temping habits and noting my temps to complete my chart when DH and I returned. However, when AF arrived all of that went out the window. The dirty slore was 5 days “early” and I was not a happy camper.
Fast Forward 7 days and AF had come and left, and we were setting foot back in Miami. I decided to go ahead and just let this cycle run, no charting no temping, and indulge those who have been telling me to relax, stop overthinking everything, and just have fun trying. (Because relaxing is EXACTLY how you get KTFU). CD 11 rolls around and I have EWCM like I have never seen before in my life, and ov pain etc etc. This continues through CD 17, then back to usual. In the last 2 months I have O’d around CD22, however with the wacky lengths and such, Im pretty sure my body is still adjusting. Now it is CD 19 and I am very crampy/testy/craving sweets etc etc and guess what?! I HAVE NO IDEA WTH IS GOING ON! Which for a control freak like me…this is not okay. Fingers crossed this is THE cycle, but if not, guess who will be back on FF in no time.
Fast Forward 7 days and AF had come and left, and we were setting foot back in Miami. I decided to go ahead and just let this cycle run, no charting no temping, and indulge those who have been telling me to relax, stop overthinking everything, and just have fun trying. (Because relaxing is EXACTLY how you get KTFU). CD 11 rolls around and I have EWCM like I have never seen before in my life, and ov pain etc etc. This continues through CD 17, then back to usual. In the last 2 months I have O’d around CD22, however with the wacky lengths and such, Im pretty sure my body is still adjusting. Now it is CD 19 and I am very crampy/testy/craving sweets etc etc and guess what?! I HAVE NO IDEA WTH IS GOING ON! Which for a control freak like me…this is not okay. Fingers crossed this is THE cycle, but if not, guess who will be back on FF in no time.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
New...
I dont know what inspired me to create a blog, mostly just the idea of being able to put my thoughts somewhere other than myspace. Im new to this so please excuse the slow pace =)
I have procratinated my whole night away and managed to completely put off doing my homework until tomorrow, which means tomorrow is going to be a l-a-t-e night. Instead, I vegged all night on the nest, with my puppies sleeping next to me. I aspire to be the person my dogs think I am.
There is no psychiatrist in the world like a puppy licking your face.
Bern Williams
Ace & Deuce-Snow Puppies
Winter 2007
I have procratinated my whole night away and managed to completely put off doing my homework until tomorrow, which means tomorrow is going to be a l-a-t-e night. Instead, I vegged all night on the nest, with my puppies sleeping next to me. I aspire to be the person my dogs think I am.
There is no psychiatrist in the world like a puppy licking your face.
Bern Williams
Ace & Deuce-Snow Puppies
Winter 2007
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