April 7th, 2009
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Happy Birthday Big Boy!! We Love you, Forever!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Happy Birthday Dawson
Happy Birthday Miracle Boy!! Thank you so much for fighting so hard for us, and for picking us as your mommy and daddy. We love you too much, you are our sunshine, our only sunshine and you make us so happy. Your giggle makes us smile and warms our hearts, and we are forever blessed for having you as our boy.
April 7th, 2009
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June
July
August
September
October
November
December
January
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March
Happy Birthday Big Boy!! We Love you, Forever!
April 7th, 2009
May
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August
September
October
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December
January
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Happy Birthday Big Boy!! We Love you, Forever!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Birthday weekend and Easter {Pic Heavy}
We celebrated Dawson's first birthday with a Rubber Ducky themed party on Saturday. IT was a great turn out, with lots {And I mean LOTS} of food, family and friends! There were so many people that came out to celebrate and it was nice to see everyone and really get to enjoy sharing our boy with all of the people who have been supporting him all along. Some of my favorite Pics...
We then celebrated Dawson's SECOND Easter on Sunday with the family. He did a great job and despite not getting a nap all day, he was a real trooper and shared lots of giggles. He was rather spoiled, taking home 3 BASKETS. He is so loved.
Looking forward to celebrating Dawson's ONE YEAR birthday tomorrow. We have his well-child, then lunch and a visit with friends/co-workers, some shopping, Physical Therepy and then PIZZA with Grandma and Grandpa. After that, we are going to pack up the car and drive for about an hour and a half to have a sleepover with cousin Isabell. Then, it's up and attem for our FIRST CALIFORNIA VACATION!! We are leaving Thursday for 10 days to visit my parents in SoCal. First plane ride and Go West! visit, and we are SO EXCITED!
Thanks again for everyone's prayers, support, celebrations, understanding and loyalty over the last year. We could not have made it this far without you!!!!
We then celebrated Dawson's SECOND Easter on Sunday with the family. He did a great job and despite not getting a nap all day, he was a real trooper and shared lots of giggles. He was rather spoiled, taking home 3 BASKETS. He is so loved.
Looking forward to celebrating Dawson's ONE YEAR birthday tomorrow. We have his well-child, then lunch and a visit with friends/co-workers, some shopping, Physical Therepy and then PIZZA with Grandma and Grandpa. After that, we are going to pack up the car and drive for about an hour and a half to have a sleepover with cousin Isabell. Then, it's up and attem for our FIRST CALIFORNIA VACATION!! We are leaving Thursday for 10 days to visit my parents in SoCal. First plane ride and Go West! visit, and we are SO EXCITED!
Thanks again for everyone's prayers, support, celebrations, understanding and loyalty over the last year. We could not have made it this far without you!!!!
Monday, March 22, 2010
16 Days to go...
I apologize for the speed in which my blog has dwindled, but I have been raging my own war with my to-do list and personality. With Dawson’s impending birthday coming up in the next couple weeks, I feel as if I am strugggling more with my emotions and keeping things under control. Looking at my son and watching him smile, laugh and giggle, I am so elated and reminded about just how good God is. He truly is a miracle baby, constantly conquering the challenges that we just cannot seem to get past. Consistantly complimented on how easy-going and even-tempered he is, he rarely fusses and is so happy all of the time. When Dawson meets new people, he is always met with the same reaction. Surprise and worry about his size compared to age. Watery eyes and disbelief when they hear the “tip-of-the-iceberg” story that has almost become our mantra. And then jubilation when they realize just how amazing he is. He is a heart-stealer and the ladies don’t even see it coming =)
But here is how prematurity gets you. It almost-never goes away, and if affects your entire family. It has stamped my son with a slew of tests and therapies, dr. appointments, and health struggles. Not to mention the threat of permanent vision impairments. And we have been LUCKY. I try not to get to down about this battle and be reminded that things could have been much worse, but I cannot help sliding as I pack him up for yet another day of being poked and pushed to his limits. I catch myself wishing months away just so that we can finally go one month without having to go to the pediatricion. It’s pretty bad when we see the receptionist out to eat and she know us by name.
And me, well I am holding on for him. I am realizing that the closer we get to his birthday, the easier it is for me to slip back into my own mind and replay the events of that day. I feel like everything went so fast and I was pushed forward so quick that as a preemie mom, I wasn't able even really get ahold of myself or surroundings. Even more so with a first pregnancy we go into the whole process naievly believing after 24 weeks everything will be fine, just fine. But the rollercoaster road ahead of us, just creates so many demons of
--self-loathing (What did I do, how did I fail…),
--envy (missing out on so many pregnany milestones and becoming envious of other mothers and their bond. NICU life also creates a lot of boundaries in the breastfeeding experience, something I had my heart set on doing)
--and constant worry (did that kid just sneeze within 20 feet of Dawson…ensue panic)
I just feel selfish for not being able to get control of my own thoughts and emotions, and I have become so resentful and bitter because MY family had to be put through this. It just brings on this constant negativity of Why him? Why us?
I have made an appointment to begin speaking with someone come mid-April. For someone who knows me IRL, negativity is not something I like or welcome, so for it to be so easy for me to slip into it is just unsettling. On the somewhat-bright side, I have talked with other preemie parents and these feelings are not-uncommon. So at least I am not a total whack-job and know there will be light at the end of this journey. I look forward to talking to someone and getting a hold of my panic and negative emotions. I don’t like having this constant negativity cloud my thoughts and mind, when I would rather be with the brightest ray of sunshine I have, my boy!
But here is how prematurity gets you. It almost-never goes away, and if affects your entire family. It has stamped my son with a slew of tests and therapies, dr. appointments, and health struggles. Not to mention the threat of permanent vision impairments. And we have been LUCKY. I try not to get to down about this battle and be reminded that things could have been much worse, but I cannot help sliding as I pack him up for yet another day of being poked and pushed to his limits. I catch myself wishing months away just so that we can finally go one month without having to go to the pediatricion. It’s pretty bad when we see the receptionist out to eat and she know us by name.
And me, well I am holding on for him. I am realizing that the closer we get to his birthday, the easier it is for me to slip back into my own mind and replay the events of that day. I feel like everything went so fast and I was pushed forward so quick that as a preemie mom, I wasn't able even really get ahold of myself or surroundings. Even more so with a first pregnancy we go into the whole process naievly believing after 24 weeks everything will be fine, just fine. But the rollercoaster road ahead of us, just creates so many demons of
--self-loathing (What did I do, how did I fail…),
--envy (missing out on so many pregnany milestones and becoming envious of other mothers and their bond. NICU life also creates a lot of boundaries in the breastfeeding experience, something I had my heart set on doing)
--and constant worry (did that kid just sneeze within 20 feet of Dawson…ensue panic)
I just feel selfish for not being able to get control of my own thoughts and emotions, and I have become so resentful and bitter because MY family had to be put through this. It just brings on this constant negativity of Why him? Why us?
I have made an appointment to begin speaking with someone come mid-April. For someone who knows me IRL, negativity is not something I like or welcome, so for it to be so easy for me to slip into it is just unsettling. On the somewhat-bright side, I have talked with other preemie parents and these feelings are not-uncommon. So at least I am not a total whack-job and know there will be light at the end of this journey. I look forward to talking to someone and getting a hold of my panic and negative emotions. I don’t like having this constant negativity cloud my thoughts and mind, when I would rather be with the brightest ray of sunshine I have, my boy!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Blogging for Babies
As I have blogged before, I am the very proud Captain to Team TNT; Tiny N Tough in this years March for Babies. However, I have yet to make my monetary contribution, because I wanted it to be something that relayed my passion for this cause, and in the name of all of the babies I know who were taken to soon. This epidemic is earth shattering to so many families, including families that I know, and many moms I have grown to love.
So I have decided to graciously steal another blogger's idea; and Blog for Babies. For every comment I get in response to this post, I will donate $1 to the March of Dimes. Furthermore, my place of employment offers a 2:1 match for donations made to this organization, so this could be BIG. My goal is to get 100 comments, and I need your help.
I am asking you to comment back on this post and help me reach my goal, and Fight for each and every miracle, so that one day, another family will never have to write a blog like mine.
How you choose to comment is up to you, but I would LOVE to honor other miracles on my page as well, not just Dawson. So if you are commenting in memory or honor of another miracle and are comfortable doing so, please comment with their name and I will add them to my Team Page's scroll. If you are commenting on behalf of My Miracle please let me know, I love to see Dawson's #1 fans who have been with us for 9 months now.
Thank you for considering joining me in this fight; for it means so much.
So I have decided to graciously steal another blogger's idea; and Blog for Babies. For every comment I get in response to this post, I will donate $1 to the March of Dimes. Furthermore, my place of employment offers a 2:1 match for donations made to this organization, so this could be BIG. My goal is to get 100 comments, and I need your help.
I am asking you to comment back on this post and help me reach my goal, and Fight for each and every miracle, so that one day, another family will never have to write a blog like mine.
How you choose to comment is up to you, but I would LOVE to honor other miracles on my page as well, not just Dawson. So if you are commenting in memory or honor of another miracle and are comfortable doing so, please comment with their name and I will add them to my Team Page's scroll. If you are commenting on behalf of My Miracle please let me know, I love to see Dawson's #1 fans who have been with us for 9 months now.
Thank you for considering joining me in this fight; for it means so much.
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